I find it hard to believe that after one can encounter so many difficulties and angst in life, one can still come to a conclusion to right where they started with, which is the word is 'pink'.

I dont know what is wrong with me but it's as if the word is shinning with a different light. I'm seeing things...differently. I'm pretty easily annoyed nowadays. Sensitivity streak going haywire. Dont ask why cause I don't know myself. Since I think it's just me, getting all sensitive and stuff and getting annoyed inside or outside, I shall keep quiet about it till I can a comfirmation whether it's just me, or the rest of the world. Though the chances that it's just me pracicay shoots up to over 60%. But hey, I've got that 40% to count on to put the blame onto the world.

I remember black skies and lighting all around me,
I remember each flash as time began to burst,
Like a startling sight that fate had finay found me,
and your voice was all i heard,
and I get what I deserve.

oh yes.

TRANSFORMERS FREAKING ROCKS!

SOMEONE WATCH WITH ME AGAIN! INVITE ME! I CAN WATCH IT A HUNDRED TIMES AND NOT GET SICK! TAKE ME WITH YOU! FOO, TAKE ME! FOOVINNE TAKE ME! MOM! DAD! KARYEN! PINGQING! HAN! KAI! NIKI!!! ABOOO!!

*huff*puff*

I seriously love this movie. I LOVE transformers and I dont give a shit that Megan Fox is a man. She's all hot to me.

Wooooo~

p/s: I didn't get National Service.

[[ music ]] new divide
[[ mood ]] blah

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a different toll is being taken..

sigh...

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I never said that wouldn't make mistakes. I'm only human and I figured that, that was my safe embrace. It may not be affecting you in certain areas in your life but it's turning into quite a distractionfor me. I do not like being frustrated and aggravated. I get drained with these emotions and it really sucks the life outta me.

I have to work harder. Dad said so and I must. I don't like disappointing him. It makes my world hell when that happens. I feel a little selfish nowadays.... Sigh.

That's all. I guess blogging will help me relieve some of my troubles/feelings from blowing outta proportion. But I feel that my blog seems so 'exposed' nowadays.

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"You don't know me, you don't even care"

-boston-

Today was a really really long day. The first thing I noticed in the morning when I reached school was the field. I always look at it as I walk to class and I noticed that the air was thick with dust. Disgusting. Today, I sang all day and did a little addmath. I skipped EST. I felt like barfing all day because I had air in my stomach as I ate dinner quite late yesterday. During choir practice, I walked  and tripped and a nail scratched my leg and left a deep wound. I was tired and sleepy. I went home and slept. I was a little nervous about the performance, so I didn't sleep well and kept dreaming bout the concert and waking up every 15 minutes. I had quite a terrible time but you know, I try to plaster a smile this time. Karyen came over soon after and abo drove us to the venue. I had heels on that I couldn't walk on. Guess what? They're pretty retarded and broken. Nevertheless, I try to be happy.

Choir was alright and there we didn't embarrass ourselves. The ballet was....alright. I enjoyed the first part. We walked to row of cafes along Kinta River. While walking, my feet hurts so bad that I took off m shoes and walked. Still, smile bout it. Walked back the same way and Wing changed shoes with me quarter more way. She tried to piggy back me too. XD

I am tired, annoyed and pressured.

I do not like being like this. Now that I think about it, what was there for me to smile about anyway. I did had a pretty horrid day. Sometimes I wonder how I can be so happy and okay about it. How other people can stand my positiveness at their sorrow. I usually say that we can't  both be sad but heck, maybe they actually find it annoying inside.

......

what the hell am I talking about...

so tired.. must be tired the JunNe talking. I'm not even gonna read this post again. Grammar and spelling errors, go away.

I have to wake up at 4.30 in the morning tomorrow for a field trip. Crazy? Totally man...................

and I hate walls. I'm too afraid to bash em up to find out what's behind it. I think I'll ignore the wall and draw the path on the wall and be delusional and think I'm happy..

Delusional...

God...

[[ music ]] void
[[ mood ]] aggravated

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It's strange really. The position I'm in is only slightly new to me. To get to know someone even better. But it's good right? The feeling of sudden nostalgia puts a little warmth to it. Who knew you can be so afraid and safe at the same time~?^^

Aside from that, I am not picture blogging. what's wrong with me.

look at this man...

this was like...forever ago...

MP, three years ago.. farewell party..

those were the days...

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